..of best frens and life..

..i missed out 2 weddings last weekend.one was Onnek's at Seremban.the other one Mueya's at TTDI.to both brides,im really sorry i couldnt make it to your reception.had some family matters to attend to and it required my urgent and immediate attention..

..Selamat Pengantin Baru and Semoga bahagia hingga akhir hayat..Amin..

..i was reading a post by PaperKlutz of her views on frens and marriages.so far,i haven't felt the 'lost' of a close fren(s) getting married.present time,all my buddies are still single tho not available :p..so,hanging out wif them is not a problem (well,not that much nway,LOL)

..but come next year,a close babe of mine is tying the knot.and truthfully im kinda sad.i know i should be happy for her coz she's getting married,she'll have someone to look after her,take care of her needs,someone who loves her immensely,to share her joy and sorrow etc etc..i know im just being plain selfish for not wanting her to settle down so soon.but i cant help myself.

..'cause wat if she makes the wrong decision?wat if the guy,despite her knowing him for so many years,turns out to be a monster after marriage?what if married life is not what she wants,actually?wat if she feels bored but she cant 'get out' of it 'cause that will make her parents disown her or sumthing,thus she ends up feeling depressed and sad her whole life?wat if?wat if?..

..i know im being ridiculous and silly.im not God.i cant possibly know will happen in the future.for all i know,she'll be even more happier than when she's single.and the husband could win "Husband of The Year" award or sumthing.

..sigh,sigh..i guess im just afraid of losing my fren.she might be too busy to hang out wif me even for a cuppa 'cause she has to devote herself to the family.and the only time i might be able to see her is during raya (cause you sure haf raya open house) or weddings or by going over to her house (kat rumah xleh nak bitch around and gossip,sigh..)

..slap!slap!pinch!pinch!..
..i shouldn't be such a bitch and so selfish.i should be happy for her,give her my full support,and be there to lend a hand/shouldre/ear (whichever applicable :-p ) when she needs a fren.accompany her shopping and to give ideas on her hantaran stuff and wedding dress..

..gurl,if you're reading this,i just wanna say that whatever your decision is,ill support you totally.you can count on me to stand by you and your decision.whatever makes you happy makes me happy as well.ill never judge you or critisize your actions (but i will give constructive and positive comments,hehehe).ill be there for you whenever you need me.i dont wanna see you sad n depressed.all i want is the best life could offer you and for you to be happy..